What you describe here is not enlightenment

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What you describe here is not enlightenment or awakening or self realization. It does seems like glimpses called satori and also some mystical experiences.

Satori is good and happens on the path but is a speck in the mighty light, you must understand it correctly and not let your ego or mind confuse it with what it is not. Your mistake is a common one and unfortunate because many got stuck there. You have a way to go and you will probably need guidance whether it is in physical form or not.