Surrender

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In the end, the truth is that you need an invitation. I sometimes wish I had not been offered Grace. Ignorance is Bliss. I feel simultaneous pleasure and torture. What am I supposed to do?
I violated my probation yesterday by drinking alcohol, and I got caught. If I get caught again, I will go to jail. I recognize my own stupidity, yet seem unable to stop the pattern. Meanwhile I wonder: is this a Lesson? Am I going crazy? Is Jail an experience I'm going to have?
My inner Being grins while my ego suffers. HELP!