my prayer that was denied!

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i was in college and self consious reading bhagavad gita daily duly when one fine evening on 18-01-1994 i saw advertisement "self realisation by her holiness Nirmala devi was presented in The Hindu paper at Kamarajar arangam'''destined for time 6:30 Pm to 9:00 pm i noved fast to catch bus from home to go to that place i was accopamied by strangely Ganesh as he asked for it and we moved and i had a best session i answered all critics as if i know already....

and as in that meeting my kundal;ini was awakened i said brither Ganesh the time of last bus is due lets run and we ran and got the bus in time... he was dumbfounded by my accuracy he knew not my kundalini has awkened...

then in that night i asked them the question ...ie mataji

i am fully yogic now can i have full exposure to kundalini yoga and spend my every breath in service of humanity in large but instead of accepting my prayer it was denied for my time of suffering was on cards and her holiness new advent as Amirtha was on cards....

it was fitting that i had the prayer to amke things worse and in my tapas i said i will take ur load as i feel as single woman u r taking the world as i got her mantras pack...
but i know not my illustrious life is going to be shaddled....
the dhyana madam of tiruvanmayur said its "57777"
lord venkatesha and all else or innocence of whats going on...

and she orchestered her next meeting on same january 1996 in Tiruvalluvar arangam and it came to haunt me as tirukkural for 14 long years is something to think off..

but one thing was clear my murali brother and Ganesh became my childrens and i took the mantle of lord siva somehow.......

They asked why he is so concerned they knew not that
.................

so what i left to say is "Fated to suffer"

with love,
dhorai.



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but the fate smiled in different way how?

the film for last 14 years never failed to sing my glory through and eke out so called good work from me to tohers through i am not doing it with great satisfaction as yogi but still the service was done in utter pain...

so one can say in a crude way i was allowed to serve masses 24 hours tough not in royal yogic fashion...

so one can say my prayer was answered in some strange way which u expect not as outcome...

with love
dhorai.

dhorai | Wed, 08/05/2009 - 19:55