My approaching to the spiritual world

laevinia's picture

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... for the past year and a half, I'm "surfing" on the net, searching for the answers.. I started by reading of Buddha's teachings, yoga and hinduism. than I "met" Osho, and started to desire to know more and more each day..
Now, I'm listening (on youtube) of Siva Baba..

I'll do my very best to improve my egsistance. To find my inner peace, to help my loveones to feel peacefully..
I know my journey has just started, I know it is a long way to get what I search for, but I wan't it with all my heart, and I surelly hope I'll find the rigth way.

Also, I worship the people whose egsistance is based on helping the others.
That's also my goal.

Hoping that someday I'll be helpfull to someone, that my egsistance will be fullfilled with spiritually right path, serving to needful people, animals and Earth
with blessings,
Laevinia Love

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Mind's picture

hurt your belief

i request you to stop reading scriptures otherwise there is a chance that it may append to your EGO called spiritual EGO vch is very dangerous.Be aware of what you are doing every second and make your mind free from any kind of belief ...whenever u r hurt plzz remember that it is not that you are is actually your belief is hurt...accept hurt totally and get freed from the belief...people who hurt can be very helpful in your journey ...gud luck:)

Mind | Fri, 02/13/2009 - 12:31
laevinia's picture

"my hurted belief"

namaste Mind,

I know that in "practice", cause I read of it... and you say I must stop reading scriptures.. that I don't understand.. how else can we grow spiritually, if we don't read about it, if we don't informe ourselves, if we don't find some path to follow?
guru, spiritual teachers exist for it..
tell me if u think I'm wrong..

i just started to want to heal myself, cause I want to change myself, search for what I miss.. find what I miss.. Earlier, I was doing everything just not to live.. horrible things. I just wanted to die, I think.. I'm in a difficul period (but who isn't?) and I felt like there is something or someone who's calling me (you can say that..) to change, to save myself.. to live...

I understand your words, I know we must be aware every moment.. escpecially for that reason I'm seraching the "way".
don't know yet which.. meditation?.. prayer?.. it's hard to find out. and I have only internet as a "guru"...

I think you're very fortunate to live in country with so many great people and teachers.. maybe that's a reason, how you know some things.. and maybe u try to "practice" them, not just "know" them in theory? did u read something, so u know that stuffs, or you just know them and that's it?

blessings Mind, all my love

if you are willing to explain me the things that you think I'm seeing as a wrong, I'll be gratefull to U...

laevinia | Fri, 02/13/2009 - 13:09
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scriptures may relieve you a

scriptures may relieve you a bit.Since u were in bad times .scriptures might have lessened your suffering or u might have got some clarity.But in real life experiences our old conditionings take control of us...we need to be aware of is a boon to be in suffering bcoz that is when we are closer to ourselves.We can meditate on our suffering without blaming anybody including ourselves.Scriptures might give you clarity for few moments but experiences are natures gifts vch are to be used to find the truth.'TRY TO BE AWARE 'is the only way to the TRUTH.Do not keep any goal in your mind live naturally and be aware of yourself bcoz anything that happens naturally is true.Dont be attentive Dont think before you do anything Just Be Relaxed.

Mind | Fri, 02/13/2009 - 16:31
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I must responde.. maybe my writtings aren't so clear.. english is not my first language..
very little things relieve me.. but it's always nice to read some nice words.. I'm a bit affraid, so maybe that's my salvation.. I will not so easily go into something that I don't understand completely, be sure.. but thanks for ur worry..
I read some answers to my contents here on guru's feet, & I've realized that I need some guide, that's true.
I like what you're saying; to be aware, I am "aware" of it and I'll try to be that, to walk that way.
thanks u and blessings

laevinia | Sat, 02/14/2009 - 10:31
enlight's picture

you came to the right place

Just remember to enjoy the ride on the spiritual path not just the desire for the aim (happiness, enlightenment, being in the now, etc.).

The means are more important than the end. This is part of the essence.


enlight | Fri, 02/13/2009 - 20:37
laevinia's picture

thanks for the welcome, and

thanks for the welcome, and I'll have your words in mind.


laevinia | Sat, 02/14/2009 - 10:33
lucas's picture


And to master the art of doubting and trusting in the same time...

And not to rush and not to get stuck...

And to care and not to give a damn...

And to learn to live peacefully with paradoxes...

And to not forget to love...


lucas | Sat, 02/14/2009 - 13:53
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Beware, we are all petty crooks

Hey laevinia, we are all petty crooks deceiving others and mainly ourselves most of the time, mainly presenting wishful thinking and hand-made hypothesis as an unshaken truth.

However there are rare moments of grace in which we are brave enough, egoless enough and sometimes cruel enough to be honest with ourselves and consequently with others, these are very precious moments and we are not aware of them being so at real time (and when we do, our mind and ego immediately terminate them by carefully introducing some fallacy).

I wish you (and all of us) -

* to be able to be honest with yourself as much as possible.

* to be responsible with others as much as possible by being honest with them despite ego pressures.

* and to be able to recognize others' deceits and still not to cease love them for that.

In other words, to be aware...


abra | Sat, 02/14/2009 - 19:36
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Very well said. Yes, be awake, be aware, know your own mind and heart, seek the truth in all things, be the observer of your own thoughts, words and deeds. Ignorance grows only in the darkness. Bring everything to the light of day.

Phroggy | Sat, 02/14/2009 - 21:02
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The highest honesty

> Hey laevinia, we are all petty crooks deceiving others
> and mainly ourselves most of the time, mainly presenting
> wishful thinking and hand-made hypothesis as an unshaken
> truth.

In my book, the highest honesty of all is to stop being a certain way, because, well, "everybody else is, too". This is the excuse people use over and over again to remain the same, to avoid change, particularly spiritual change.

We have to get the group-think out of our system and stand alone, independently, individually (not divisible, not divided).

Omkaradatta | Sun, 02/15/2009 - 00:03