Material bondage and the death of love

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There have been times in my life when i did not make nessesary changes due to feeling bound to material pocessions. Now I know a lot of us have heard over and over again from different faiths to practice non attachment to the material world. This however is sometimes very difficult and can be very damaging to ones life.

Not to long ago I was getting under paid at a terrible job to try to make payments on an excessivly high morgage. My partner and I thought that since we were having a child we needed to own a home. Every day i felt like I was treading water up to my chin trying to maintain the life we had created. In the final year of my former life we were not living within our means due to me being laid off from a previous job. The pressures of trying to keep my family in this house was literally killing me.

My physical, mental and spiritual health was crumbling. I was slowly gaining weight and loosing energy, patience, and the ability to feal and exspress my love. I was starting to feel so weird i feared something was seriously wrong with me. I was plagued by depression, anxiety, fear, and was foolishly trying to combat my ill situation by drinking alcohol. The most tragic thing about it all, was hearing the flower of my life, my true love tell me that she didn't love me anymore and that she couldn't remember what it was about me that she fell in love with.

I knew something had to be done. by staying in a unhealthy situation i had lost everything that matters most to me.

We decided to move away from are life in the big city, give are home back to the bank and move into my parents old unoccupied house in the middle of nowhere, in a town of 260 people. Even though this was a little scary at the time it was the best thing we could have ever done.

We are now living within our means in a beautifull home in a very peacefull town and my health has increased dramatically in every way. After four long fearfull months of thinking my relationship was over, and my daughter was going to be raised in a broken family, the angel of my life fell back in love with me, and are family dynamic has never been stronger.

I am sharing this with everyone that will listen in hope that no one will make the same mistake i did and stay in an unhealthy situation because of a material pocession. There seriously was a moment not to long ago when i truely thought i had lost everything i was trying so hard to protect.

My blessings are upon everyone out there that may be in a similar cituation. May you take action in your life to make the changes to protect the happieness of the ones you love and yourself. It truely is a miracle that i was able to pull everything back together, dont wait as long as i did. Dont wait till the relationships in you life are being damaged.