MASQUERADE

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By the time I reached my guru,I'd really really had it !!!

I had reached the limitation of my mind in trying to figure out how to lead my life {end my sufferings on various aspects of my life.}

For the first time I had acknowledged that my mind didn't have the answers,and I was done figuring out anything.

{ I guess it was total surrender,though I wasn’t conscious of it as that }

I now was not even concerned with the suffering or even interested in fixing it...!!!

I wanted to know the TRUTH....

What this whole ball game was about...

I remember reaching my guru ,seated in his presence,having an internal dialogue with him,and literally telling him in no uncertain terms : " Dont give me any B.S. Band-aid answers.{you know how a parent puts band aids on to wound when the child cries over their wounds...??? }

I want to know the TRUTH

I want to know what what this whole ball game is about..

I'M done.

SATGURU : SRI SATHYA SAI

{Irony or co-incidence,the name-TRUTH personified …!!!}

OH HOW MUCH HE MUST HAVE LAUGHED...

Ignorance {unconsciousness } of my true nature {awareness}, and knowledge {consciousness } of my true nature{awareness},both aspects are only appearances in awareness.

Honestly speaking,SAMSARA,when there was realization of the underlying unity of awareness of both these aspects,{they just cancelled each other out },and the conflict dissipated,there was uncontrollable laughter at ridiculousness of the whole situation.

Frankly all that remained was this NOTHINGNESS,EMPTINESS,AWARENESS DEVOID OF ALL CONTENT ,OF ALL SENSE OF SELF.

Infact, NOTHING REMAINED...!!!

Hehehe...!!!

TRUTH,LOVE,PEACE
MAI

This blog is a response to comments made in the previous blog : CONSCIOUSNESS-THE GOLDEN MASK
by SAMSARA,hence the name appears in reference.
For continuity please read the GOLDEN MASK blog.
I found the topic would make this an interesting fresh blog,hence - MASQUERADE.



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That was beautiful. I love

That was beautiful. I love it. :)

reginahoward | Wed, 08/29/2012 - 09:55
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MASQUERADE

Thanks Reginahoward.

TRUTH,LOVE,PEACE
MAI

MAI | Wed, 08/29/2012 - 13:55