Knowledge Exposes

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I am standing on the balcony of my 9th floor apartment,again.
It’s 1.30 am.
It’s quiet….the darkness of this hour.
I look out at the lake below-shimmering in the moonlight.
It has rained almost the whole day today.
The sky is still partially overcast.
Can barely make out the weird shaped mass of some flotsam, that has dislodged itself from the further end of the lake, and traversed to the centre.
Beyond the outer edges of the lake,circling the horizon, the twinkling city lights.
Amidst a few trees,soft white clouds of smoke billowing from a small bonfire.
And in the stillness of the night….
A penny drops.

Knowledge has its purpose.
It exposes. Brings to light.

It exposes our NEED to know
That NEED also veils our FEAR of not-knowing,of NOT-BEING
And underneath that fear…


Beyond even the knowingness,the beingness...


The moment the light of knowledge or consciousness , falls upon the FEAR and the NEED to overcome it….it has surved its purpose.
Seen for what it is, the 1st instinct is to beat it into submission, or change it, or overcome it, or manipulate it.
So that it somehow looks like something else, anything else, except what it is…!!!
Total resistance, complete non-acceptance.

I pause.

Standing exposed.

No defence.

A misty drizzle brushes my cheeks.
And I shed a quiet tear.

All I’m left with is a deep, deep, complete acceptance of my human-ness.

And Gratitude.


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I am, yet I am not...

Asanga | Mon, 10/15/2012 - 07:19
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Knowledge Exposes...

Thanks Asanga.

Have only mentioned a couple-fear and need.

I'm realizing that as one's ability to face,and acknowledge, and deal with,whatever's been hidden and buried deep within,the readiness or maturity, will gently release it,and bring it up to the surface-to the light.
Like watching a rose bud bloom.
Cant hurry up that process...!!!
The entire fabric of one's wiring or conditioning,lies unravelled,threadbare,exposed.

No denial of any aspect of one's being.

Literally :


{ By the way,thats the title of a book on SWAMI,by V I K SARIN-the late brother of a dear dear friend of mine,Roma Chandrakant,who is no more...!!!}

And then the let go process,starts happening spontaneously.

It's very very freeing....after the upheavel of the stuff coming up.

What a relief...!!


MAI | Mon, 10/15/2012 - 08:57
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Thanks again

You must make a book of your writings as well...
I am, yet I am not...

Asanga | Mon, 10/15/2012 - 17:47