I sacrificed my life but it was missused!

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I was in college from 1991 -94....
The New College royapettah ch-14
I have to take business as my brother badly needed support and i scored 70 percent in first two semesters...
then second year is one of "strike,strike ,strike"

but their i scored "GOLD MEDAL " in chess.

but only 40 percent in marks.
third year i have to compensate and scored 67 percent but total aggregate came to 59.43 percent...just missed first class by some margin while all i trained got first class...

NOW CAME THE TIME OF SACRIFICE...

i said no to "M.C.A" and by strange fate i got no seat in msc physics then eventough i kept no arrears but the universities failed to see and that too indian universities they have to improve...but instead of recognising my sacrifice my father lived at my expense.....
so my sacrifice became more painful...why? i said no to mca for my sister marriage took place in "hotel kanchi " beyond our means and we have 2 lakhs debt and my father had "B.P"
and i was daily getting corporation water in morning to keep his health well...."

morals to learn:
1)Never slaken ur studies after first year betterment...as u take things easy in second year.

2)the world says no caste but by caste sysytem alone selection is done before its abolished apply to college with ur caste system.
eg.,
Brahmins are given primary importance by vivekananda college while "the new college to muslims" and loyola college to christians"

3) Never sacrifice ur career to irresponsible father and family men...that u may have to rue later.

with discretion
DHORAI.



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Sacificed by whom

Do not cheat yourself and blame others for your stupidity. You sacrificed nothing at the same time you are under the erroneous belief that you sacrificed for others.Do not compare yourself with LORD JESUS.

vsrinivasan1879 | Fri, 07/24/2009 - 06:45
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who art thou is immaterial but the answer is...

ur idiotic reply poses three questions...
What is sacrifice explain?

thats what i am alos saying....
my so many insults from my father and sisters all meant
that my decision is wrong...

i am thinking its not sacrifice....

for like u my father thought he is doing sacrifice like me let us enjoy at his expense....

read "superman blog"

u will say even my father has done no sacrifice and its all stupidity...(laugh)

seeing whole its "fated to suffer"

why i thought that it may be a burden because by sycology
a father who is going through severe B.P is bound to suffer
stroke as "every load of debt is increasing his disease"
only when u live together u can observe probably god gave u no such chance...

if i take MGR university MCA it meant 3 LAKHs spending again more debts for want of funds and next my support to family business will be lost next who knows my father may die of heart attack before i finish my MCA....

What mattered to me was my worsening fathers health and a woorrying sleepless brother who want to do lot in business...

At that moment my decision was right....

but did i know that "her holiness Mataji Nirmala devi is slowly eroding my tapas and is seeing 24 hours to killing my life if i did know......

sadly even after 14 years my father fails to see that i have been sabotaged or it was a well planned murder"

they killed me slowly...or as jesus said its finished...

i too said "its finished i will not fight with men even my sister has sinned and wholly accepted defeat"

read all the blogs u will know "how slowly and constructively they demoralised and defeated me and how the people all holded on to sinful destroying mechanism"

"its more cruel than jesus for jesus died in cross one day i am carrying "holy cross" and suffering for last 12 years...its more than jesus boy...

as chandru paramasiva said "be selffish"

it could have went like this i could have like many amassed wealth by M.C,A in IT field at the expense of my brother and my father would have died truly...

but as u said my stupidity...
the pain my fathers lives and curses me in my non achievemnt u know "its cursed sacrifice"
for whom u sacked ur life they never realised its value...

if u r a worthy son and u see ur father has taken pains to rear u and he is dying and brother is dying many may be selfish but time allowed me not....

but as time would have it....

its quality of brain to feel pain....

why my father recognised it not ......

what r the reasons.....

their are no ifs and buts in our life....

if my life is not killed by "babylon " how by revelation she can suffer ever lasting fire....

u respect ur father he knowigly and nopt knowingly responds with ur sinners and says ur not earning well....

what can u say.....

"like sindbab the sailor story"
the old man stood upon the young man and found happiness in destrouying his life unware to so called his good self he displayed to others it may be somekind of insecurity virus..."

as mostly all insecure old man are prone to it...

more he whips u daily "u have nt earned and so may matters"

its JESUS carrying cross for 14 years being whipped for all the mens (americans etc) or all christians muslims for leading a perfect life....

yes one mystake i have done with respect to my father....

he expected me to finish Msc physics and rise a college in his name and be a prof....

he do not know or his emotion has covered his brain to such an extent that " i was taken to A.M.Jain college menambakkam like jesus having "last supper" before he was crucified...

i was taken to Msc Physics to be crucified....

the atmosphere in college was worse daily.....

Student made sure that i get no support sycologically from my mentor so called "prof RAmesh" he failed me at the most important point saying "if i support u other persons will say its sin"

They were just taking one class and giving me insecurity that the portion will never be completed.My father was really deceived me by wrong advice when i settled for teacher job "by taking me to death, he could have said sriram concentrate on teaching "u need not come to death and Mr.Varadan saying ...

Dont u know the ethics that u have to phone and get permission...

My highly pure father is devil if not he would have said to me what is professional ethics....

To my father like my sister sriram can do anything and to them life is play when its pain for me...."

Mr.perumalswamy saying cooly why is he adjusting "he is the real person orchestered to spoil my kundalin power and he did won...."

and he is lamenting " the ram is in rain the wolf cries"

i will post fully duly....

why the electronics teacher silently took to "Ayyappa temple" is anybody 's guess....

The higher men or women who planned the crucifixtion very well knew i will pass out in Vivekananda College and orchestered my death at "A.M.Jain college"
the poem answers clearly "FATED TO SUFFER"...

with love
dhorai.

dhorai | Tue, 07/28/2009 - 17:07
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how sacrifice entered my brain!

My envious brother Pressanna would say
u r born on "12" which means "sacrifice of the victim"

ie u will be sacked for the plans and intrgues of others"

next he would say look i have fate line u have none but he knew not that Balaji like me sagitarius men need no fate line to earn....he without knowledge poisoned my brain...

next it was fated by palmistry...

i am carrying "de lou mystic" at times when palmistry represented two of my sisters marriage which any true palmist will know means "he carries the load of both of his sisters sin"

now cross referece or flash back ....
"u know ur jesus and u know martha and mary (lazarus sisters) are now really ur sisters and being a teacher u have to carry their loads as well.....

as bible says in the hour of darkness the crucifixtion came and is well destined....

if my sacrifice is stupidity or fated similarly then jesus dying in cross is also stupidity...

with love
dhorai.

dhorai | Tue, 07/28/2009 - 17:14
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u must be the clever madan_gautam in disguise...

good....i am myself doing operation inner and outer i suppose...

first as having known all things i just kept quiet...
but i taught now its time to erase karmas effectively...

rule:
any sacrifice said outward fails to be a sacrifice but continuos curses or hurts from my father more than 1000000 lakh times and continuos repurcussions u see out in tv etc channels mean u r bound to suffer and i thought its effective to nullify karma of even sacrifice and explain it fully for years i said in my brain when my father cursed me for not earning....

"its fated...its fated etc"

it should be i was tricked would be right by "innocence spopntainity and wisdom of sahaja yogis cleverly"

for many times i said no! no! no!

but they by attack attack and attack converted it to yes...

how RVS RVR and RVP together forced me to get "yes" and how my brother remained silent is another story...

with love
dhorai.

dhorai | Tue, 07/28/2009 - 17:22
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Ha-Ha -Hah...........

Things happen in a four dimensional space of its own. Their is no individual doer. Taking credit of good thing and blaming others for failure is the habbit of human beings, including you. Nature does the thing prompted by gunas.

vsrinivasan1879 | Wed, 08/19/2009 - 05:32