I love you dad

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From my recent realizations I have finally been able to write this letter that sadly can never be sent, but at least it will be written.

Dear Father,

24 years ago I was born and you did not hold me. I was named Michael, I sometimes wonder if that would have been my name if you had decided to visit me in the hospital. For the longest time I wondered who you were. I wonder what your name is. Are you really from Libya? I wonder what your favorite food is? I like almost anything, so I am sure we would have been able to eat at your favorite restaurant and I would not have complained. The years went by fast. Where are you now? I am sure you have a family by now, but still maybe even unconsciously, do you dream about the boy you never knew? The son you had but never saw? How do you imagine I look like? I remember when I started being able to grow a beard and noticed some red hairs coming out among the dark brown almost black hair surrounding it. Did I get that from you? Well, now I am married and have a daughter...I am only 24 and I was 21 when I got married. I am sure that would not have been too young for you haha. My daughter is 6 months old. Her name is Alina and I have beautiful wife name Beverly...she's is Mexican...would that of bothered you like it did mom? Nah, I don't thinks so since you are a mix too like me haha. We are happy. I wanted to thank you. Yes, thank you for helping me realize what a good father should be. I know this may hurt but it hurt me for the longest time. Sometimes from extremes we realized what is right. You are the Father I wish I had known but you are also the father I hope to never be.

You will never read this...and that is your fault. I hope you have left this world so that you could at least enjoy your granddaughter because that will the be only way. I don't talk much about you...because there is not much to say.

I do know this, you with all your fault is more deserving of Love than even me, because you need it. Dad, I love you. I forgive you. I hope you can forgive yourself. Be at peace wherever you are. Forget about me dad. Your children need you more than I. I release you with love. That is all I can give.

Love,

Michael



anony17's picture

Love...

Beloved Miguel,
I had tears in my eyes...
You are the son every father yearns for...
maybe if I could, I would simply hold you close to my heart and remain quiet for a long long time- simply hearing you breathe...
Your pain is sweetened with your understanding and love- do not let it vanish- for that is what makes you a compassionate human being...
Today you are wiser than yesterday, and you will be far wiser tomorrow... but today you need to be loved and understood- and accepted for who you are...
I cannot be a guru to you- but I can be a good friend and guide in your times of turmoil...
I love you dearest one,
Blessings,
Deepam

anony17 | Thu, 01/29/2009 - 16:19
Michael ji Ramaprasad's picture

Thank you

Your kind words have impacted my soul. You will always be my friend and brother. How can anyone ever question that Love is who we are? Thank you so much for being who you are!

love,

Michaelji Ramaprasad

Michael ji Rama... | Thu, 01/29/2009 - 16:38
Annie's picture

thank you

Dear Michael -

This is so touching! I want to thank you so much for having the honor to be shared with this. It teaches me so much about true forgiveness. You are really a special person.

The following may sound as New Age stuff but let me assure you that what I tell you is based on validated experienced knowledge: your father receives the spirit of the last paragraph, he is not aware to the reason why these movements of though arise but they arise in his domain of consciousness. By what you write I suspect that you are not aware of the extent of connectedness you have with your father. I am sure you already know very well by experience with others that you do not need to be in physical proximity with your father to be able to communicate with him. You have done more than enough in that sense by now leaving him to go.

Love to you my dear soul and thank you again for sharing this.

Annie | Thu, 01/29/2009 - 19:39
Michael ji Ramaprasad's picture

thank you

thank you for your kind words

Michaelji Mahatma Ramaprasad

Michael ji Rama... | Thu, 01/29/2009 - 20:06