A glimpse of satori

sonti's picture



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Disconnected, disidentified, disoriented completely
That's how I woke up the first morning in Bangkok
The long flights and many hours with no sleep
or the charged memories of familiar delights
Horrifiying
No center, no I, not even a sense of I
Truly, where am I
Panic
Then I regained a central point of reference
and immediately regretted
But it was too late
I ask myself how would I react if it happened today
without being prepared
(You are never really prepared)
I would like to hope that my conditioning, this time, surrenders
But I doubt it



alon's picture

Had similar incident with Ayahusca

I had that several times during Ayahuasca journeys. The mind or whatever it is fights vigorously to regain control, the screams can be heard miles away. Indeed, each time I regret a second after I fought back but each time I have more courage, each time I go further and then sometimes a bit back.

Of course with Ayahusca it's more extreme because the mind is out of control to start with so there is more panic to start with.

alon | Tue, 11/03/2015 - 22:18
shishmanidov35's picture

Beautiful

The center - one of those things that we are taking for granted and assume that we can live comfortably without.

The state you describe is called I-amness, that's what Nisargadatta Maharaj and others ask to try to attend in several ways.

shishmanidov35 | Fri, 11/06/2015 - 21:46