Following Spirit downstream

Omkaradatta's picture

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Many of us here are engaged in spiritual practices, but could it be that life itself is the primary spiritual practice? What is it that your spirit is asking of you?

I remember as a teenager, I suddenly began to stay up all night/sleep all day, to recede back to childhood. My parents were very upset, and felt that they had failed. Yet I persisted, although driven by the world into at least some achievements eventually. As a young adult, I fell into panic attack disorder, and withdrew even more from society. I did not want what society had to offer.

In the end, I abandoned working altogether and spent most of my adult life alone, withdrawn, following Spirit downstream. Toward the end of this period, I saw no human faces for days at a time, focused on my Self only. I had to get the world out of my system completely. It all ended in January of this year, when the continuity of the 'me' was broken.

Nisargadatta: "My Guru told me: that child, which is you even now, is your real self (swarupa). Go back to that state of pure being, where the 'I am' is still in its purity before it got contaminated with 'this I am' or 'that I am'."

Could it be that it's natural for us to be lazy, to 'want it now', to have trouble getting out of bed for work in the morning? What is it that we really want?

Maybe what we want is "now", period. We want the Now back, instead of thinking to achieve this and achieve that all the time. Maybe it would be easier than you think to abandon all seeking. You may have to make some drastic life changes, but it can happen if you really want it to.

Our true nature is Being, awareness, not doing. The ego (sense of doership) is contrary to reality, and we know this deep down. If you can find the 'entry point' to your indolence and sense of laziness and follow it downstream, you have found the right path. After all, the natural state is natural to us. Ego is not.

Just do it thoroughly, if you do it at all. Come to rest in the here and now. Let the world go, until you can approach it rightly.

If this 'natural path' is for you, you'll probably know it. Just BE.

Phroggy's picture

I was just noticing again

I was just noticing again today how there's no interest in doing anything. This has gone on for years, but it comes to a head sometimes because things that absolutely have to be done become critical and force the issue. To the degree there is a resistance to doing, I can see this isn't a good thingy.

In any case, I agree that it's not in our nature to be driven toward some goal and struggle to accomplish. We've built a society geared toward becomming that raises an eyebrow at the idea of just being. If becomming doesn't make sense anymore, you're pretty much an outcast.

Phroggy | Tue, 09/16/2008 - 05:43
Omkaradatta's picture

Maybe it's time for some changes?

"This has gone on for years, but it comes to a head sometimes because things that absolutely have to be done become critical and force the issue."

What has to be done? We have to eat, sleep, breathe, drink water and stay reasonably sheltered ;-). Maybe it's time for some changes? But I don't know the specific circumstances...

"If becomming doesn't make sense anymore, you're pretty much an outcast."

There's nothing wrong with (unattached) activity, as it's natural to us. I don't see how folks could really tell the difference between "activity for its own sake" and "activity for the sake of a goal" ;-). Unless the people in question are really into achievement, 'moving up the ladder', blah blah.

I go to some counseling groups during the week... I do it because I love riding the bus/listening to music, the walk outside, getting coffee on the way, talking to people, etc. There is nothing to 'get out of it', but the activity itself is enjoyable -- it really doesn't matter here what the specific activity is.

All is in the mind. You're only an outcast if you feel yourself so. When gurus say "you are the Supreme Reality", they aren't kiddin'. It's a terrifying and awesome thing to accept, probably has to happen gradually. Just remember you aren't alone, if you don't want to be -- that is up to you, too.

Omkaradatta | Tue, 09/16/2008 - 07:37
venkym's picture

Just Being is the ideal but...

As someone who just wants to be, your needs may not be much. But what if you have a family to take care of. You have no choice but to be active. If I had enough money I would drop all the work i do now. What peace :-) By wife complains sometimes that I dont want to become anything more. Well once the spiritual bug gets you, you dont want to become anything.

I guess the bug gets those who are lazy in the first place. I will have to figure out a balance of just the necessary sort of activity. And just accept it all...

venkym | Wed, 09/17/2008 - 12:58