Don't be afraid from intial accumulated energies in the now

lalo's picture

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When abiding in the now after a long time, at first, accumulated unpleasant energetic and emotional residues may erupt from the subconscious.

This is part of the power of the now that makes everything accessible.

These residues may include feelings of emptiness, depressions, worries, great fears and so on. All these residues are not new, they had been there before, they had just been tightly sealed in subconsciousness and unknowingly caused a great suffering.

Many who taste consciously the experience of being in the now for the first time or after a long time, turn their back to this highly important state because they get so terrified when these residues are erupting.

This petition is to encourage these people not to abandon the approach, the eruption is only temporal, accept whatever erupts and observe it, it will soon go away and leave a space of stillness.

Don't put the being in the now aside because of initial eruptions!

atlantis's picture


True, many have a trauma from their first encounter with the now and with meditation.

I also have experienced from time to time a blow of emptiness in the face when entering the now. I think it is the accumulated energies and also the mind resisting in the point of transition.

atlantis | Fri, 02/20/2009 - 13:50
Omkaradatta's picture

Good suggestion

Sometimes even after abiding in the Now for a long time, an occasional reaction will come up. Even Nisargadatta in "I Am That" said that he occasionally dealt with old reactions.

To remain with the reaction seems the best approach, accept and observe as you stated... dwelling on it is a good way to 'exit the now' and be in the mind again. As every moment is new, any reaction can be 'let go of' as though it never existed, without having to get involved in memory again.

Omkaradatta | Fri, 02/20/2009 - 19:55
Phroggy's picture


I think there are two aspects to this disruption. One is subconscious stuff that we avoid dealing with by keeping busy and distracted. This is mostly why some folks never slow down. If one is not already mostly conscious, this 'stuff' is likely to be overwhelming.

The other is the natural asserting of the ego. Since the ego identity is in the memory, to be fully present is to cease accessing and reinforcing the ego identity, which will slowly fade from lack of attention. This can bring on an existential fear and ego will do anything to reassert itself. Any movement here at all will take one out of the present moment.

The difficulty is not being present but remaining present, and mind/ego cannot be the enforcer of this presence since it is what must be absent.

Phroggy | Fri, 02/20/2009 - 20:34
banana's picture

To make things more accurate

Very important piece and great help to many, I'm sure.

To make things more accurate: these phenomena take place when you are close to the now, not in the now. You are very close to be here and now, very close but still...

These disturbances can easily move you out from this almost there place - if you identify with them, i.e. take yourself to be the one who feels them. And most probably you will because this is our default habit. What you have to do at that point is to be very alert, identify these noises, and by observing them disidentify from them.

Then you will feel this special serene yet slippery feeling typical to the state of being in the now.

banana | Tue, 04/14/2009 - 18:22
seeker's picture


yes, this is the danger and if you are strict on just watching these clouds while anchored in the now they fade away.

It takes practice to not be drifted into identifying with them and thus be moved away from the now.

seeker | Thu, 04/16/2009 - 11:29
Quantum's picture

Makes sense

The original post did not catch my attention when I first saw it a few months ago.

But I had a difficult last few days, starting this past Saturday morning. The stuff in my subconscious has been....oh man...erupting. It has not been pleasant. I am recovering now. And starting to-- in layman terms--feel better. In more esoteric lingo--more centered again. I new it was my subconscious. I had no idea that it is so pulluted with negativity, and old patterns of negative, victimization, and poor me, conditioning.

Last night I started doing what I know best:
Started neurolinguistically reprogramming, or at least, popping new subroutines into my subconscious for "protection" using my favorite method: Afformations.

My grander approach is to skip the mind (both conscious and subconscious) completely. By pass them. Circumvent them. leave them behind. Like looking out the back window of a bus and laughing at your friends who missed it who were trying catch you to chastise you for no apparent reason. My favorite method for this grander approach of bypassing the mind is: Meditation.

I come there this mornign and the first thing I see is the original post above, and I realize, so that's what's been going on these last few days.

Thank you original poster. And for everyone's insights also.


Quantum | Wed, 11/25/2009 - 17:24