Dissatisfaction

Meherwan's picture



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Dissatisfaction...not happy...not liking anything in this world...

This is what am currently going through.. I am bored of this life.. and the known things which are happening around me here..

Guru come to me fast move me from this state this is unbearable...

No happiness..no involvement in anything..nothing interests me..i am gone..i am no more..the guy who used to enjoy every single moment..

Never enjoyed my past..

Never enjoying the present...

No hope of the future...

What is this state ...OH! Dear GURU, Please come to me..move me from this state...i don't want to be living , nor want to be born again and again in this phase...

No purpose for my living..this state is not pleasent...

HELP ME THEE



B-friend's picture

Very Beautifully Put

I know in this state there is not much comfort that can be found nor had, but, what you wrote reminded me of a folktale I once heard so I looked it up to share here. You may know of this one.

>>>One day Solomon decided to humble Benaiah Ben Yehoyada, his most trusted minister. He said to him, "Benaiah, there is a certain ring that I want you to bring to me. I wish to wear it for Sukkot which gives you six months to find it." "If it exists anywhere on earth, your majesty," replied Benaiah, "I will find it and bring it to you, but what makes the ring so special?" "It has magic powers," answered the king. "If a happy man looks at it, he becomes sad, and if a sad man looks at it, he becomes happy." Solomon knew that no such ring existed in the world, but he wished to give his minister a little taste of humility. Spring passed and then summer, and still Benaiah had no idea where he could find the ring. On the night before Sukkot, he decided to take a walk in one of the poorest quarters of Jerusalem. He passed by a merchant who had begun to set out the day's wares on a shabby carpet. "Have you by any chance heard of a magic ring that makes the happy wearer forget his joy and the broken-hearted wearer forget his sorrows?" asked Benaiah. He watched the grandfather take a plain gold ring from his carpet and engrave something on it. When Benaiah read the words on the ring, his face broke out in a wide smile. That night the entire city welcomed in the holiday of Sukkot with great festivity. "Well, my friend," said Solomon, "have you found what I sent you after?" All the ministers laughed and Solomon himself smiled. To everyone's surprise, Benaiah held up a small gold ring and declared, "Here it is, your majesty!" As soon as Solomon read the inscription, the smile vanished from his face. The jeweler had written three Hebrew letters on the gold band: gimel, zayin, yud, which began the words "Gam zeh ya'avor" -- "This too shall pass." At that moment Solomon realized that all his wisdom and fabulous wealth and tremendous power were but fleeting things, for one day he would be nothing but dust."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/This_too_shall_pass

To add..You know who you are. You know your heart. Sometimes we need to be reminded of that. Besides, a guru may find it useful to make those feelings much much more unbearable. No use it that really, other than to be tested, which gets redundant after a while doesn't it?..and they can take their toll on the mind, too, which can create unwanted traits for it.

I read something recently that mentioned a trait that those with depressive tendencies tend to think catastrophically. I now catch myself when that trait sifts through my mind. Although, the sincerity of your post hints that your not necessarily depressed, just really really hungry and thirsty. It's always up to us to decide when the fast is over......With love and anticipation for you.

B-friend | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 11:49
divine intervention's picture

I know what you mean

It is such a hard state, sometimes feels like feeling nothings is harder even than feeling bad, than feeling pain.

I had a few times of such a difficult phase of dissatisfaction and numbness.

The same universal reaction is applicable here as in other difficult states: to take a moment and truly observe that feeling and then mentally accept it. To understand that what you are yearning to in that anxiety is more content, is more entertainment, is more excitement, to understand that this stress is the result of our addiction to "mental entertainment" and satisfaction while the level of satisfaction keeps going up like in any addiction.

If you manage to accept this state, even temporarily, then you will see that you can have this terrible feeling and still be in relief. It is surprising. Your distress is not because of this emptiness but as a result of your resistance.

Love, you are not alone in this, you are not the only one who experiences this. Keep reporting here.

divine intervention | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 12:03
Meherwan's picture

Thank you!

Thank you! Dear Divine self

But...I am accepting thatz paining..not resistance..am living..and living and living like this...now i need a break..only here i shout out all my feelings like this..otherwise am observing this phase very calmly and being with every moment....

I am looking for a GURU who would guide me out into the everlasting bliss...help me

Love

Meher

Meherwan | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 12:21
carlito santo | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 13:12
dhorai's picture

i wanted to say i am here to help! but......

something processed me to make use of this post for a poem...

read my blogs it may give u some hope...

first how many gurus exist who go to the home of disciple to help them its mostly the other way... if so they do go will they be respected duly...not at all...

u r asking help where ....

Gurus are busy doing MBA...
Where philanthropis t have shut their ears...
Where Childrens are in race of who is big?
and philosophers exist as saddist!
Where minting money seems most important
even at others expense....

what to say of enormous poem .....

some correct help would be connect to some organisation
1) do service....what help u can do and in that
see the glory of god...
2) But do service many exist as not able to speak even
their pain out to others....
3)and how many males exist not able to share their pain even

u being a feamle sypathy vote would fall esily even...

or do pray meditate what appeals to u take it ....
my street went into darkness as everyone lighted a candle
as if ur prayer has reached god....
but Meher to me even the gods so called are helpless...

with love,
dhorai...

u reflected my word and thought today...

i was the first to see ur post and said mentally without posting u speak out openly i am not able to do so...

WHERE THE GURU IS NOT AT ALL COMMANDING GURUISM....

with love
dhorai.

dhorai | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 16:24
Meherwan's picture

Thank you!

I have gone through the links you have mentioned, they help in one way that this is not a unique feeling but already lot of fellow seekers are going through this phase.

But How and what next is not clear....

want you to share some more thoughts on it if possible.

Thank you once again for sharing those links.

Love

Meher

Meherwan | Mon, 08/17/2009 - 07:18
madan_gautam's picture

Search of Guru

Be genuine and pray with more pure heart and ask the Almighty to guide you and I am sure that if your thirst is genuine then you will get your Guru easily.
This is my personal experience.
OM

madan_gautam | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 16:38
NIDHI PARKASH's picture

be optimist

please don't be fed up of world.such thinking comes to mind when the energy of manipur chakra (solar plexus)gets a little imbalance.but i know you are not acquainted with it,so i recommend you to study following stated book of noble prize winner DALE CARNAIGI;-

" HOW TO STOP WORRYING AND START LIVING "

NIDHI PARKASH | Thu, 08/06/2009 - 18:27