Question about Kundalini
I have a question about Kundalini, I'm not sure this thread is the right one:
A few days ago I was lying in bed and, how shall I say, was playing a little bit with myself (excuse me for the bluntness of details but I don't want to hide anything which may prove relevant).
At some point my body started shaking like hell - I was shivering in gross vibrations all over and I couldn't stop it. I got so scared, I was really worried that I was going to die, my regular trust in my body and its ability to sustain hardships was diminished - I seriously doubted my heart could bear these hard shivering, that my body could undergo this state much longer. I speculated that it is either my nervous system malfunctioning or/and my perception of reality or/and some body epilepsy or... some spiritual experience.
At some point, I noticed that the vibrations are moving in waves throughout my body and are not monolithic. They indeed moved from the bottom of my body, somewhere around my lower back and genitals, upwards to the head.
Then I noticed that if do not resist the flow of vibrations in any point on the way from my lower back to the crown of the head, the shivering stops almost completely while the flow becomes steady and subtle, though persistent.
Whenever the shivering started again, I scanned the path between my lower back and crown of the head and found out some blockage in one of the chakras. The blockage was usually associated with some strong fear and manifested in the stiffness in the muscles in the area of the blockage.
I was constantly trying to say to myself: surrender, release control, do not resist. But I felt that the surrender will mean loosing my life, stopping the vitalization of the body, giving up my duty to defend the body. I felt that my insistence to try to fight it is the link that gives life to the body. I was not prepared to die and I was in a panic.
Again, it was such a frightening experience. I felt so helpless with the body against the danger of going to die. By this experience, I realized that I'm so attached to that body and to life much more than I ever imagined.
During the experience, I was wondering where the enormous energy for these vibrations could come from.
Since the flow started in the area of my lower back, I suspect that it may have something to do with the Kundalini stuff.
I will deeply appreciate anyone who is acquainted with this subject and/or is experienced with such phenomena, to give his/her input and advices