When One's Lost One's Mind......

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Oh....how I'd locked up my tears......
And bolted my smiles.....

It's only possible to be this crazy.......

When one's lost one's mind......

Mistaking it's vicissitudes......as we would, an errant lover, jilting life.....the natural " ......ebb and flow.....were the breath not so......" .......wanting it to bend to our will.......of how it should be........we stopped feeling.....being run by our heads......in an attempt to keep ourselves, safe.......and when the dam broke......and we saw that none of it worked.......we were ready, again.......to be our self......every moment you.....and you......and you......

Self.....self.....the separation, that went.....was never even, really there....!!

I was a back bencher in school......

Till, in class 6.....all of 11 years old, the class teacher, Miss Freeze.......pulled me up, to the first row, and sent a note to my parents to get my eyes checked, as even from the front row, I couldn't see the black board !!

Names etched in our hearts.....such simple things....how they've charted our flow, I now see.....

I have to add though, my father resisted getting me glasses.....cause of some high fallutin' bug in his head of how it would spoil my "beauty"......
Hahaha......
He made me walk early mornings, barefoot, on our dew laden grassy lawns, in an attempt that " it was good for the eyes".......no idea where he got that from !!
Later, only in college, did I put my foot down, when I told him, I couldn't see the bus number at the bus stop, and had to keep asking everyone around me.....and more importantly, couldn't make out the faces of the stars on the screen, when I went to watch a movie....

Ohhhh.......how life shapes us.....we are being "waved"......

With eyes closed, in deep reverie......

Did I even, need these glasses to see......

That all the stars in the firmament, were me.....were me.....

And head and heart came together as one......and I can no more tell, where one begins, and the other, ends.....

Aaaaaahhhh......

Love.....is nothing but this intuited unitary flowingness.....

And it is Life...and Love......and You.....

And I merrily colour outside the lines, in gay abandon.....

Aaahhhh.....

Life.....I Do.....

Who's that girl.....