Surrender to Chaos
The world around us as well as the world inside us (which are not different, it is just the ego that separates them) are chaotic.
They are chaotic in all aspects: in the sense that we do not really understand them, in the sense that our mind is not fast enough to keep pace with and observe them in real time, in the sense that they are composed from endless tiny particles, details, and processes, in the sense that we cannot have any control over them, none whatsoever!
Take for example your body, right now, not as a concept. Do you have any, even slight, real-time wisdom as to what is going on there right now? These billions delicate processes that at this very same time operate within your tissues, your magnificent blood system with all its astonishing survival functionings, your nerve system with its numerous signals signaling at this very moment, your memory, your brain. Do you have any control over these processes? If this is not chaos then what is chaos? Right here at your threshold.
Yet, our mind, built on the foundations of fear and distrust in existence, tries hopelessly to gain control over this chaos. Our mind fears whatever is not under its control, or to be more accurate, whatever it thinks is not under its control since distrust means there is nothing divine out there (and in there) that it can trust to do the right job in this chaotic world.
And so how does the mind fools itself to gain control over chaos? By simplifying and filtering it into a narrow one-dimensional model, by ignoring and thus eliminating 99% of it. In this sense, we are all narrow minded.
There are some good practical outcomes from this filtering mechanism. Thanks to this simplified view of the world, we can identify running cars and cross the street safely. Indeed, basic physical survival is probably the reason for this filtering mechanism. The problem arises when our mind tries to use this mechanism to have a mental controllable view over existence, over chaos.
And in such one-dimensional simplified narrowed filtered view of the world, no wonder we feel emotional emptiness, constant sense of boredom, it is indeed so boring and casual world this way. Emotional emptiness, so common and yet so concealed, is one of the main prices we pay for our trial to control and avoid chaos. The world turns simple but then boring.
Going beyond this mechanism and surrendering to chaos is one of the most powerful approaches to cure emotional emptiness. How to do it? This is for my next blog entry, I will show a simple meditation technique that assists in surrendering to chaos.